I really was planning on my next post being an actual update on my life and something happy! but I guess you can't plan life.. Well I was just listening to Taylor Swift today and I am still amazed that she knows just what words to write and how to put them together. This is so hard for me and I don't know what to do anymore, have you ever given your whole heart to someone and loved them unconditionally only to find out someday that they don't have that shared feeling? It may sound high school ish I know but it's even harder and more frustrating when you know they can love you like that because they have before but then they just decided to stop trying. Well before I say too much on here, here is the song I would like to share, it's called Forever and Always.
Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye. We caught onto something. I hold onto that night you looked me in the eye and told me, you. loved. me. Were you just kidding?? Cause' it seems to me, this thing is breaking down and we almost never speak. I don't feel welcome anymore.. Baby what happened? Please tell me, cause one second it was perfect! Now you're halfway out the door.. And I stare at the phone, you STILL haven't called and then I feel so low, I can't feel nothing at all and then I flashback to when you said forever and always. Oh and it rains in my bedroom and everything is wrong, it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone. And I was there when you said forever and always.
Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest that made you run and hide? Like a scared little boy, I looked into your eyes, thought I KNEW you for a minute but now I'm not so sure.. So here's to everything coming down. to. nothing. Here's to silence. That cuts me to the core, where is this going?? Thought I knew for a moment but I don't, anymore. Oh and it rains in my bedroom when everything is wrong. It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone! I was there when you said forever and always. You didn't mean it. Oh back up baby back up, did you forget everything? Back up baby back up did you forget about me? Back up, baby back up please! Cause it rains in my bedroom and everything is wrong! It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone. And I was there when you said forever and always! Oh and I stare at the phone, you still haven't called.. and I feel so alone, I can't feel anything at all. Then I flashback to when we said forever and always. You didn't mean it. I don't think so.. you said forever and always.